The last day of July is here. I always find it interesting how little time is left in the month after my birthday. Anyways, July is the last full month of summer here in Florida as school usually starts in August. I am looking forward to Tax Free Weekend this week as I have supplies to buy. I am looking forward to school this semester; but, I know how busy my life is going to be when it starts. It is the equivalent of working two full-time jobs and only getting paid for one of them. I know in the future all of my education will pay off. I just need to keep pushing on.
Making boys cry since 1987. Anyways, with a new year beginning for myself it is time to make some new resolutions. The usual boring things like school and work would bore even me; so, I will only talk about blog related ones.
I should be posting here three times a week. Lately, I have been ill and so the posts have been limited. I am feeling better and I have the time. The only foreseeable events are the holidays and finals week. However, I have been known to avoid the cram study sessions by doing anything else including blogging. I will see what is going on at the time. The days I seem to post the most are Wednesday and Friday. The third day will be a toss-up depending on energy level and events. Think of it as a surprise post.
I have a pool of topics sitting in my Blog Topics folder asking to be published. I hope you will find them as interesting as I do. Thank you for reading my blog.
There has been a bit of talk about only child syndrome on the web lately. The cure would seem simple: get a sibling. I am of course joking. Yet what happens when your only child becomes an older sibling?
This was me at 3 almost 4. I was an only child at this time; in fact I would be an only child well into kindergarten. School of course is the bench mark in which everything is measured. So, if I was an only child by the first day of kindergarten and an oldest child by the first day of 1st grade what is the difference?
I am almost six years older than my sister and the way I see it we didn’t grow up together as we grew up in series. When she was the age I was when she was born, I was in middle school, when she was beginning middle school I was almost done with high school. The gap in our ages meant we were hitting different stages at different times. We also had different personalities and still do.
I don’t think there was much difference between when I was an only child and when I was an older sibling. I think it is how I was raised. I spent most of my childhood ignored and on my own. I did independent play and reading because of the lack of attention at home. I did not need validation outside of myself and that is still true about me. I really do not think that would have changed if my sister was not born. I am however glad she was.
Well, it has been a month since I started my vacation and it has been about 3 weeks since I have returned. Since then I have been sick and stressed. I felt a little bit tired during vacation; but, since I have returned it has turned into exhaustion. I only want to sleep. Then I started my period early on July 5th and I have not stopped. I went to the doctor and have had a series of tests and it has come down to sick with a hormonal imbalance or stressed out to the point my body is reacting. I have to wait until the hormone tests come back on the 2nd to determine this.
Yeah, I had the whole colony in my bed thanks to the rain driving them up the wall. Then they sprayed chemicals all over my room and in my bed and I am not risking my health sleeping with those chemicals. Then I found mushrooms growing out of my wall in the bathroom and this could be a sign of mold in said wall. It is just gross.
Lastly, my poor cat Ramona is stressed out enough by my illness to have blood in her urine. I am her person and our connection is strong enough for her to be affected. This makes me feel worst of all; I am making my cat sick.
So, either I am sick that is causing me to be stressed or stress causing me to be sick. At this point I have too few results to find an answer. I guess I will just take a nap.
Drugs & Death
Gleeks are still reeling from the shocking news that Cory Monteith has passed away from a toxic mix of heroin and alcohol. I can only imagine what his friends and family must be feeling this week. The truth is for the public is getting over exposed by young stars trashing themselves and dying young from drug overdoses or accidents caused by their bad behavior. In the last few years the most notable death from drug overdoses have been Heath Ledger, DJ AM, and Amy Winehouse. Even though DJ AM and Amy Winehouse’s deaths were sad they came with some outward warnings. What makes Cory’s death as shocking as Heath Ledger’s is the fact they seemed normal on the outside. Fame can not be blamed for Cory’s death for he has had a drug problem since he was 13, well before fame. Drug addiction does not make someone a bad person; the level of drug addiction he had was an illness. From all signs he was taking drugs to become “normal”. This is why he seemed normal on the outside with everyone who were even personally close to him and why he died alone in a hotel.
Saying Goodbye and Moving Forward
Grieving is a natural part of life after the loss of a love one. There is no right or wrong way for someone to grieve and we should give those in Cory’s life, especially Lea Michele and his family, the time and space to do so. When that time is over it would be a shame if Lea Michele or other Glee cast members decided not to go on with their talents of singing and acting. This is not to say they must stick with Glee; but, they should stick to their singing and acting careers. I was always in awe of Lea’s optimistic view point before the tragic death of Cory. She says she knew what she wanted to be from a young age and she made it happen. I hope she does go back to the projects she was working on when she feels better. Hang in there, Lea, it does get better.
As for Glee, it will never be the same show and if they decide to go on there should be some honesty in Finn’s exit from the show. The problem with teen shows is they are open about sex and not drugs. When I was growing up the show to watch was Dawson’s Creek. As much as I love the series, they did not portray drug use. Yeah, they had Andie collapse from taking ecstasy at a rave; but, she was sent for treatment for her eating disorder. The “bad” girl Jen drank alcohol during the high school years. On seasons 5 & 6 everyone (who were ages 18-19) were functioning alcoholics. It sent the message cigarettes and hardcore drugs were bad for you; but, once you are 18 you can have it all with a beer in your hand. It was the alcohol that killed Cory and Amy Winehouse and it is alcohol that kills more each year than any hardcore drug. I find this an irresponsible message and one Glee could fix.
Don’t Stop Believin’
I could not end my blog about tragic deaths without mentioning The YouTube Star and Little Cover Girl Talia Joy Castellano. She lost her 6 year cancer battle yesterday at the age of 13. She was only 7 when she was diagnosed with aggressive cancer. I had a classmate who passed away from a brain cancer when we were both 9. Cancer is a tough battle to fight and she almost never let it get her down and took up makeup instead of a wig. Now, she is doing the angel’s makeup. She wanted people to be aware of childhood cancer which is something no child should suffer from. She had a great spirit and we can only hope to learn optimism and grace from her example.
I hope I have not depressed you with this post. My goal is that you read this post and keep believing. I believe in an afterlife and I have hope for the troubled and pained souls finding peace in the afterlife. Some of you may not believe in an afterlife, just keep this in mind: The journey of life has the same destination, it what you do before you get there that counts.
My vacation was a little too good. I am back on now. New full length blog will be posted tomorrow afternoon.